“Question everything.” I am not to sure who the quote is attributed to, but they are wise words.
As young kids, this comes naturally, just ask any parent with young kids. I think some days I drove my parents crazy with all my questions. I think all kids are like this at one point or two in their lives.
When we get to high school and the take science and/or mathematics we are told to question everything, but I didn’t need a teacher to tell me this. I was naturally curious.
All my growth, whether it be educational, or spiritual, or emotional, was a result of my questions. Back when I was a kid, we used an encyclopedia, or the library, or asked adults (For you younger folks, there was no internet to make this easier 😉. The school of hard knocks was my “go to” source for answers.
I was one of those persons who tended to have to repeat the same (life) errors over and over again until I got it. The was mainly due to the fact that I was too pigheaded to change. I could give a bunch of life lessons here as examples, but to keep this blog post manageable, I will just use one.
One of the biggest, and difficult lessons for me, was asking for help. I believe this was because I have Cerebral Palsy and I felt I had to be independent. Another reason was that I felt I had to prove myself to others again because I had CP). The final reason is that I am proudly stubborn; once I make up my mind to do something, I had to do it. If this meant failing and try it again, then so be it.
The first time I sought help was when I suffered from depression and hit rock bottom. My family pushed me to seek help – government agencies and counselling. They helped and my life eventually improved. I have been unemployed two or three times in my life with almost a year, sometimes a bit longer, gaps in my employment record. I sought help each time, mainly though employment centers and later through friends (or friends of friends). I sought help, but it was only after I was successful on my own. It was never easy for me to seek help. I am too proud, too independent, and too stubborn. It’s who I am.
I love learning, and with learning, I have never stopped questioning why things are the way they are. The “big” questions, are ever present: Why am I here/why do we exist? What is my purpose? This is why I studied science, philosophy, and read a lot of (Catholic) theology books. I believe the answers to these two big questions cannot be found in any one field, but in the combination of each of these fields of education.
I will never stop learning, so I guess I will continue seeking answers to those questions.
—Robert Confiant 19 August 2018