I am being more productive

A few weeks ago, I wrote about how I need to be more productive with my living. I believe I have lived up to this promise. I have spent less time on social media. I am reading more, writing more (at least on this and my other (Health) blog. I am also been busy with stuff around the condo, cooking more meals at home, and with doing exercising (At least, doing Calisthenics).

The keeping busy thing, away from Social Media sites, has not been easy for me. I still do it, but not to the same degree that I had been. Do I have room for improvement? Of course, I do. Everyone could improve on anything if they really needed to. It’s human nature. The thing is, does everyone try to strive for self-improvement. I doubt it.

As I age, I see the need to self-improve. I don’t know what exactly started me on this journey of self-improvement, but I believe it was after I hit rock bottom with my depression, and my family strongly encouraged me to seek help – At the time, I wasn’t good at asking for help. I guess having a disability and the need to show I could be self-sufficient did not help in this matter. I learnt that I could not always do things on my own. For me, this wasn’t an easy lesson. I sought professional help.

I went for training, they helped me find work. Later, when I was ready, I went back to school to get my OACs/Grade 13 (It was a transitional period – Now, they don’t even offer this option, but back then you needed it to get into university). My wanting to be in school, make all the difference. Before when I didn’t wish to be there, I only got average marks. Whereas the second time, I excelled. This was the start. It gave me confidence that I could do things. It was the first step in change. Later, I got into IT. IT changes all the time and one is required to keep up with the changes in order to continue to be relevant. I learnt not to fear change. I began to incorporate the idea of change in my daily living. I strove to self-improve. I read more, tried new things.

Even today, I still try to improve. I write more. I used to write as a teen, but then I stopped. I stopped because I wrote a lot of poetry, but it was very dark and depressing. Because I suffered from depression at the time and I was trying to get out of that mindset, I gave up writing. Then about 10 or 15 years ago, I returned to writing. At first, it was short stories, then I wrote verse, then I wrote a book, and now I write blogs. I have improved immensely with my writing. I will always strive to be better, but the thing is to stay with it.

The “stay with it” is key. One must always stay with something if one is to improve at whatever one is striving to do. Writing is my thing. It has been a constant ever since I returned to it. Now, I am on a health kick. I was never good at dieting. I just “Yo-yo.” I have tried numerous times, but I always regained the weight back quickly. I know now; however, that the key is not to diet and to keep going. It needs to be a lifetime thing. It must be one of the “stay with it” kind of things.

You see, I am always learning. I hope I never stop.
—Robert Confiant 20 April 2019

I never learned to drive, so I take transit

I am running a tad late this morning. It happens once in a while. There were train issues. I rely on public transit and unfortunately these things happen.

I never learned to drive. My older brother took me around the court once, but that was the extent of it. I could have taken lessons, but at the time, you didn’t have the money. When I finally had the means to take lessons, my eye sight became an issue. So with my Cerebral Palsy and the eye sight issue, I decided not to learn to drive. I lived in a big city, so I could manage with public transit.

When I relocated to Vancouver, I took transit; however, I was confined to the Metro Vancouver area. Except for a few outing with friends, it wasn’t until I met my partner that I got to see some of the surrounding area. I don’t regret anything mind you.

Some people dislike public transit, but I don’t. I kill time productively by either reading, or writing. I write more often on transit and I often joke that if I wish to write, then I should take transit. For some reason, ideas come to me while taking transit and the writing flows easier.

It is quite strange, but it works.
—Robert Confiant 15 April 2019

My time

It’s been too long since I have written here. I am afraid I let my “fitness blog” get the better of me.

About the fore mentioned blog, I haven’t written much of anything else which of one truly knows me makes sense as I am ” an all, or take it kind of guy.” I have always been this way. I have many interests, but only so much time. Plus, I  can get easily distracted and get absorbed into one thing, which is why YouTube wastes so much of my time; such that, I have forsaken watching television, or anything else for that matter.

I am changing my physical well-being, so I might as well use the same method to help me be more productive and actually do stuff instead of wasting time with YouTube, or other internet stuff. As of right now, I am making a commitment to myself to do more “stuff.” As a result, I can be more productive. I need to start showing physical results with how I spend my time.

Learn stuff, read stuff, write stuff, clean stuff, I need to show anything for all the extra time I have away from work. After all, work allocates a lot of free time. I rarely, if ever work overtime. I have all this free time, but I have was it. I don’t have anything to show for it.

So, a new course is warranted. I have started a new healthier lifestyle; albeit slow and steady. But, it’s working. I can do the same about my spare time. I can plan to be more productive without burning myself out mind you. I can take it slow and steady like I am doing for my health lifestyle change. I can strive to write more, read more, or to learn that which I wish to learn. I can be more productive.

It’s time for me to do this.
—Robert Confiant 10 April 2019

My writing fulfills a need

I am reading over stuff on social media. One just has to shake one’s head over some of the stuff that gets posted. Life can be stranger than fiction sometimes.

I have the opposite issue. Most of the time, my life is hum drum, boring and not of interest. A lot of the time, it’s get up, go to work, come home, eat and later go to bed. Even most weekends, I hang out, surf the net, clean my messy condominium, and write on my blog. Lately, I have managed to squeeze some workout time at the gym.

You will notice my life is boring which is why I read and write. I read on the bus to and from work; at least when I am not writing for this blog. Writing, now there is my saving grace. My writing helps alleviate this feeling of mediocrity. It helps fulfills a need, or an urging that would otherwise leave me wanting more from life.

Lately, my writings consist of writing for the two blog sites which I maintain. I haven’t done much in the way of poetry, verse, short stories, or the book. Still, I am pleased with what I am doing when it comes to my writing. Could I be doing more? For sure, without a doubt l could, and I should be doing more.

Overall though life is good. I met up with friends over the weekend that I haven’t seen for quite some time. It was a terrific time, and until then, I never really knew how much I missed, and need them in my life.

I am a social butterfly. I hate to drink alone, so if I do go to a pub alone, I always sit at the bar. It doesn’t take me long before I am chatting with the person sitting beside me. One time, this strategy back fired on me. The guy snapped at me when I tried to start up a conversation. I told him, “Go sit in a corner table somewhere next time. The reason most people sit at a bar is to not feel like they are drinking alone.” I asked him, “Why he bothered sitting here if he didn’t wish to socialize?” He finished quickly finished his drink and left. Not that I go to bars much anymore, but I made my point.

Anyway, here I am taking transit to work and writing this to post to this blog. All is good.
—Robert Confiant 18 March 2019

Writing ideas

Some of my best writing ideas come either when I am in bed, or riding on transit. When I am in bed, I don’t always get up and not them down (I think I will change this as I miss out on some juicy titbits). A few of these ideas might lead to nowhere in the long term, but a few might lead to some gems.

I woke up last night a few times with the same idea in my head. I never jotted it down while I was in bed, but because I woke up numerous times, and because it was the same idea, I never forgot it (This is unusual; I almost always forget). I noted it after I awoke. I am taking this as a sign that I need to follow this through as far as it will go. It will mean a lot of research and a lot of note taking and story and character development, but I think it will be worth it. If successful, it will be a novel of epic proportions, and my biggest work to date. I still have other works I wish to complete, so I am talking years here (My very long term project).

This writing for a living is an odd venture to take up. I do it because I love to write. I may never be famous, but I enjoy the craft. It took me a long time to find my vocation, but I truly found what I love to do. Everyone should find their passion which make this 9 to 5 existence bearable (One needs to exist, but one doesn’t necessarily have to stick with one aspect of living).

The issue with writing is one never knows when they’ll get an idea, or urge to write which is why I keep a writing app on my phone. If I am in the middle of something and I get the urge to write, then I can note it down, and edited later. As I said, “I do a lot of writings while taking the bus as I have a solid hour to write without any interruptions.” The truth be told, “I get a lot of work for my blog done while taking transit.”

So that’s what is up with me, what are you working on, if anything? It really doesn’t matter as long as you find your passion. If you can find your passion and make it a career, then it’s all the better.
— Robert Confiant 22 February 2019

It is going to be one of those winters

I haven’t done much of what I should be doing I should be writing. I claim to be a writer, but I haven’t done much writing lately. I been doing a lot of YouTube and some reading (there is that at least – reading), so it hasn’t been a total waste of time.

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I am not too sure why I am in this rut, but I definitely in a lethargic mood. I don’t seem to want to do too much other than surf the net. Pathetic really when one thinks about the amount of time being unproductive. I can’t blame the work load either since before today I have been off for four days. Perhaps it’s because I still have a bit of congestion and I feel not a 100%. It still feels like an excuse though. I know I will go home and other than cook, I won’t do much else. Actually if truth be told, I just want to sleep. I think it’s the time change.

Last evening, time felt off by an hour off. I kept thinking that the clock was wrong. Every hour on the hour felt later than the clock was showing. I dislike that it gets darker earlier. Is not quite “Dark when you go to work, and dark when you go home from work,” but it is close.

I find the late fall and winter months very trying. We’ve been generally lucky with the weather thus far, but I know the rain season is near. I guess it could be worst. The weather and time change shouldn’t bother me, but I think this year might be the exception – these get to me every five years, or so – this year is that year.

I will get through it. I always manage. I just won’t be my “happy” self. I may be more of an isolationist and a little bluer. It happens. I have the SAD light at work. I think I will start using it; that will help me.

Here I am plodding onward.
—Robert Confiant 14 November 2018

I feel like crap

 

frustrationI feel like crap, but I went into work anyway. I figured its Friday, so I might as well drag my ass into work. This being shorthanded thing is getting tiresome. And, it looks like they won’t be hiring anytime soon (In the New Year maybe). Oh well, I took the first week off in January.

I plan on sleeping most of the day tomorrow to shake it off. It’s nothing serious. It’s just a touch of congestion. Terra will like it. She will end up sleeping with me on the bed rather than her usual haunts: her box, the footstool, or my other half’s computer chair.

I hope to feel up to working on another chapter. I am still trying to balance the reading and writing tasks with my everyday life. I’ve already beat my Goodreads goal of this year. I will have to boost my goal to 40 books next year, but I may reach that goal this year. If I do, then I will make it.my goal to read, or reread 52 books next year.

Other than these, not much is new. It’s the same old routine. I don’t have an exciting life. It’s pretty routine (Work, eat, sleep with reading, writing and some socializing thrown in).

Well, back to my reading. I am reading “This is Kind of an Epic Love Story,” by Kheryn Callender, so far, so good.
—Robert Confiant 2 November 2018