MODULAR DESIGN ACTIVITY – assignment

WRITE 1 PARAGRAPH/SECTION PER ITEM LISTED The story takes place at the park. Two characters, Fletcher and Cameron - converse at a park bench while a third, unbeknownst to them, watches. 1. The Weather.                The grey skies threatened to snow as the biting cold wind blew from the northwest. You can feel the chill … Continue reading MODULAR DESIGN ACTIVITY – assignment

I am writing again

I wrote this evening. My writing was something I haven’t genuinely done for a long time. Well, at least novel writing anyway. It wasn’t that I had writer’s block, no it was more insidious. The Covid situation wore my enthusiasm; I had lost any interest in things I previously enjoyed. Quite honestly, I was depressed. … Continue reading I am writing again

Bring on the nightmares

I watched the final episode of “It’s a Sin.” I guess I will probably be having bad dreams again tonight. That’s been a thing – too many memories. I witnessed the story the author was presenting first hand. I watched my brother wither away to skin and bone before he passed away. I wasn’t there … Continue reading Bring on the nightmares

A new page.

I was at my heaviest again after Christmas 240lbs. I am only 5’4”. Actually, I am under that 5’3.5” now that I am older. I was feeling every pound of the weight. My hips and knees ached daily. I was out of breath just moving a little bit. I have osteoarthritis and asthma, so those … Continue reading A new page.

Looking for beta readers for my memoir

I have completed my first draft of my memoir "PEOPLE OFTEN ASK ME LIVING GAY WITH CEREBRAL PALSY" and while I have one or two beta readers. I am looking for a few others preferably authors or English majors, but I am open to others critical readers. If interested, email me at rjconfiant@hotmail.com.Thank-you in advance.Robert

Delving deep

This only first draft, so my goal for this year is to get it all out. I want to complete the first run and get the story on paper with all the chapters. Already, I can observe that snippets of the story will need to be reorganized to help with story flow. Right now, there … Continue reading Delving deep

We all have our type

Straight or gay, male or female; whether we like to admit it, we all have our type. Mine is dark haired, fit to chubby, somewhat hairy men. I am not ashamed to admit this, nor should one. It’s human nature to be attracted to what one is attracted to. I grew up in a white … Continue reading We all have our type

A step in the right direction

At my heaviest I was almost 240lbs (109Kg, or 17 stone), that’s not something anyone wants to brag about. I am 5’4” (1.6m) and I am morbidly obese. I wasn’t always so. Up until I was 16 or 17 years old, I was 135 to 140lbs with a 30” waist. I never started putting on … Continue reading A step in the right direction

A new plan

  I completed chapter two of my memoir and began chapter three this morning. Iam writing, and I came up with a new plan. Currently I have three works on the go with none of them completed. I havedecided to alternate between each novel: my memoir, the suspense/thriller noveland the sequel to The Crux. By … Continue reading A new plan

People often asked me: a memoir

Well, this happened today (one of many works I haven't completed):Chapter 1When I was young, as far back as I remember, anyway, people used to ask me, "What's it like to be disabled." At that time, I used to answer, "I just am."A few years later, I would answer, "I don't know any difference, so … Continue reading People often asked me: a memoir

Life is unexpected

I was watching one of my favourite shows, Doctor Who, last night and one character stated, and I am paraphrasing here, "When you're old and wiser, no one wants to listen to you." It got me thinking. Life rarely goes the way one expects. When you're younger, you think that school, and all its politics, … Continue reading Life is unexpected

I am reading Openly Straight by Bill Konigsberg

I am reading a book Openly Straight by Bill Konigsberg. It's about a gay guy who's tired of being that "gay guy" around school, so his solution is to switch schools and to pretend to be straight (Or not to be out though not necessarily back in the closet - I don't get it, but … Continue reading I am reading Openly Straight by Bill Konigsberg

Learning to love oneself

I cannot always say that I have loved the person I am. When I was a youngster, I never gave the idea of: “Loving oneself,” much thought. I only wanted to be accepted and fit in. I think most of us kids felt this way. When you’re a kid all you want is to be … Continue reading Learning to love oneself

Straights, marries and gays

Some gay men are into straight men and/or married men. Comments and jokes like: “Convert the straight,” and “What’s the difference between a straight guy and a gay guy? … Six beer” are often mentioned or joked around by some of these gay men. I am not one such person. If your straight or married, … Continue reading Straights, marries and gays

On friendship

I have a friend who when I meet him always makes me happy and I cannot help smiling when I see him. We met for lunch yesterday with my other half. This friend invited us to a restaurant where you had to climb a set of stairs to enter from the foyer to the restaurant. … Continue reading On friendship

My complete coming out story

I've written about parts of this in other posting here on this blog, but I haven't put the whole story together. I first came out to myself where I really admitted to myself that I preferred guys over girls. I hated myself. I tried to pray it away - God, how I tried. I cried … Continue reading My complete coming out story

Depression and life

I just listened to a TEDx talk on suicide and life. Once upon a time, I could not do this. I am told quite often that I am a strong person. They say this because I have dealt with having a disability, so well. And if I am honest, in some ways they are correct. … Continue reading Depression and life

I no longer do religion

I grew up strict Roman Catholic. I was pretty "goody, goody" as a kid growing up. The first time I swore was when I was in Grade 7, and I did so on a dare. I remember it clearly. There were only a handful of boys in the classroom with me and they kept promoting … Continue reading I no longer do religion

Pivotal points, forks in the road

I had lunch with two co-workers last Thursday, one was leaving at the end of this week to pursue other avenues, and she wanted to get together before I left on vacation. We got to discussing life, new beginnings and life choices. I told the two younger ladies what I have learned about life changes, … Continue reading Pivotal points, forks in the road

Gay and self-loathing

I was out with two friends for a few drinks at a local watering hole yesterday (well it was local for two of us, for the other person it used to be a local bar before he moved out of the neighbourhood). We got discussing about “the gay thing” and gay acceptance. This got me … Continue reading Gay and self-loathing